September 12, 2014

I wasn't ready

10:46 pm, and I decided I wasn't ready. No five minutes of free-write and community for me.

I didn't think I would even do it. I will probably be among the last, and my blessed few will read it.

Everything is messy just now. Complications to finding work, friends bleeding hearts half out from a hundred miles away, Restlessness itching me from the inside. Transitions, transitions.

I won't be using this blog much anymore--I have decided to start a new one, because I am ready for something new. This was my first blog, my first brave, and I will be letting it go soon. I might still do my five minutes here, but even that is unknown just now.

I am ready for something different, something focused, yet more encompassing. I am calling it Stones by the River. It will be my space to mark the places where He has been in my life in the hopes that we might all see Him more clearly. I want to incorporate my other artistic skills--photography, lettering, drawing. Remnants was what I had time for when I had time for it. But He deserves more than my remnants, and I am ready now to give more.

I must decrease, I must, and this new blog will hopefully be a way for Him to increase.

I wasn't ready to post these words, wasn't ready to share this part of my journey, this risky venture into new, uncharted lands. But He was ready.

I wish I could give you, dear neighbor, something more profound, more interesting, more beautiful, but today this is all I have.

8 comments:

  1. Just know you are loved and appreciated... your honest heart speaks. I hear ya. I can relate.
    Sometimes that all time low hits hard and we wonder if we'll ever rise again.
    I can't wait to see/read what comes from the Stones by the River...

    Thank you for being such an encouragement in your writings... they - your words - are always beautiful and real...

    Be encouraged!

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    1. you cannot know what your words have meant for me today. Thank you.

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  2. Wow, I do so wish you luck in your new venture. Making a decision to change how something is done into more of how you are feeling the Lord leading you can be overwhelming. Thank you so much for sharing this bit of yourself. ~Leigha, stopping in from FMF

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    1. It truly is overwhelming. I am so glad you can relate, and am so glad you stopped by today. Thank you.

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  3. Hi there! I think what you wrote is beautiful. Good for you for stepping out through the fear of the unknown. He will bless you for it.

    http://5heartsonefamily.blogspot.com/2014/09/am-i-ready.html

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    1. I cannot find the words to thank you enough for your encouragement. so I will stick with tried & true: thank you.

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  4. I like the idea of Stones by the River. I do a thing called stones of remembrance. It's good to mark the spots He meets us at so that we can remember. We are a forgetful people.

    May God bless you in the next step of your journey.

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  5. You know I'm comin' with you, my friend ... can't wait to see what you unpack!

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